Another new beginning, another year to grow.
A time of possibilities, a time of chances, a time of new plans.
A continuation of old ideas, a compilation of ideas.
It is 2017.
Many years have passed by and hopefully many more will continue to move along.
Last year, I spent a good portion of it making plans in my mind, contemplating things I could do. I didn't do many of them.
Despite all I was able to accomplish last year, finishing my first first draft, losing weight, attending my best friend's wedding, learning that I strangely enjoy F1, attending the Renaissance Festival with Margaret (and having a fun-filled weekend with her), and overall becoming happier with myself, I realized something.
My goal to stop being a stagnant Charater in my own life story failed. Well, not necessarily failed, I did grow as a person (at least I'd like to think so), but I still feel stuck.
Anytime in the past that I have tried to decide on how to stop feeling stuck, I've talked myself out of any ideas.
"They were too expensive."
"I couldn't do them alone."
"Why would this thing or that thing help?"
"I can do that when I'm done paying off student loans."
I've been making excuses.
Why?
Because I'm scared.
I've been so in my comfort zone, circling it like a vulture circling above its prey, so much that I've worn away the dirt beneath my feet.
Maybe I've been pulling myself out of the hole that I had fallen into, but I've been creating another just as difficult to get out of only in different ways.
So today, right now, I'm going to make a list of things that as exciting as they are frighten me for reasons I don't necessarily understand. Maybe not all of them frighten me, some I just really want to do. I'll pull from my bucket list as well, so I guess they don't all necessarily frighten me, but anyway.
- Get a passport
- Go most of a month without make-up
- Go skydiving
- Go on a vacation somewhere
- Go somewhere not in Texas
- Go Camping
- Finish my second draft
- Get a literary agent
- Easily run a mile
- Do a 5k (I've done one, but I want to do another)
- Make Homemade jam
- Go Ziplining
- Learn to cook more things, different things
- Go Kayaking
- Become a Morning person
- Apply for something I'm pretty sure I won't get
That is 16 things to do. The list is in addition to continuing my journey to be healthy.
Overall, my hope is it will help me become more comfortable with stepping outside my comfort zone. Yes, I know many of the things don't seem like they should cause anxiety and looking at them they don't. It's just when I go to actually try and do many of these I get nervous and uncomfortable, so what better way to stop walking in circles and actually do some of them?
That is a little more than one thing a week for the year. Some things take more time than others, and although I'm going to try and cross everything off, if I can get 12 of the 16 done, then I'll be content.
Have you made a resolution this year? If so, tell me what it is in a comment!
Until Next Time,
Shelby
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